So, my drummer situation is now sorted. Now I just need to get everything else in order. A good start would be getting a reply from people on when they have time to rehearse… I guess I’m just gonna have to get brave and pick up the phone rather than relying on text messages, Facebook and e-mails.
It’s kind of hopeless trying to be a musician while having social anxieties, I realise. Especially when you’re a singer. As a drummer or a bassist, people will always approach YOU. Even as a guitarist you have an advantage. But as a singer, YOU have to take the initiative yourself, for everything, all the time. This is problematic when first contact freaks you out. Just “getting over” ones phobias isn’t quite as easy as it sounds.
In other news, I have a new mobile. It’s a fancy mobile; a “green” mobile! As in, not the colour, but in the being nice to the environment way. Shell made of recycled plastic, no dangerous chemicals in the battery, no “bad” metals, all friendly, no nasties. I love my new mobile! It’s a Sony Ericsson Elm. I call it Freddy. As in Krueger. As in “Elm Street”. Clever, right? Obviously, not my idea. 
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And thus the Bacon has rewarded you. Or something.
I had not considered the angst of being a singer in the world of music. This is because I am not a singer, I think. However, you do not always have to take the first step. Just most of the time.
Try zen and phobias. Accept that the phobias are there, and when they try to phobiate you, turn to them, and say in a stern voice “Phobiate me later, I’m busy!”. Then do the stuff, and after it is done, have a short panic attack. Or have it later, if you have something else to do. I have explained this very badly, because I understand it very badly, but it has worked for me when dealing with episodes of mania. Of course, mania is hard to put off for long.
Give Freddy a cuddle for me!
@Yellow Scarf: I think I understand what you mean, about putting it off. That’s probably how I usually manage in the end. It’s hard work, though.
And Freddy has been cuddled!
Freddyness!